Growing Up vs. Growing Old

So today is my birthday. I am celebrating the 20th anniversary of my 26th birthday. To tell you the truth I don't remember feeling like this when I was 26. I had a bit more of a bounce in bubble when I first turned 26. Now I have a hitch in my get-a-long. I think some yoga is in order. Yep, yoga.. that thing the old people are doing so they don't hurt them-selves. Nice long stretches that's it, just what I need to be doing. Staying 26 has done nothing for my body, but it has done wonders for my attitude.

I had a salad for lunch, look out I'm going to get wild, tonight I'm going out for sandwich and soup for dinner. I'm just not that wild and crazy chick I once was 20 years ago. I can tell you however, I like myself. I am a wonderful person. I am kind, caring and passionate. I can work without having to overwork and feel like if I don't finish something now now now that the world will end. Because you know what? It won't. I have pride in what I do, but what I do is not what defines me.

Who I am is what defines me, and today I am a 46 year old woman, I am an Omah and I am also a College Student eager to learn new things. I love to travel and I am full of life and happiness. It is good to be alive and loved. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! 

Family

Family, everybody has them. You cannot control who they are or which family you will be given. I consider myself lucky, I survived my childhood families and in the process I made a wonderful family from it. A daughter who is grown and beautiful both inside and out. She is currently raising her daughter who is feisty and curious about the world, eager and full of life and such a joy. I am remarried to a giving man who puts everything he is into all that he does. I have a great job and work with kind compassionate people. I found a church that I can relate to and where I feel the Lord speaks to my heart and I have friends that I can open up to that help me with my struggles. I am truly blessed.

As you have probably already guessed, it has not always been this way. I have had several different family settings and I would say that in each there has been dysfunction. Let me explain dysfunction for you as unsettled, unhealthy, stressful or a situation where another person is inflicting mental, physical or sexual duress upon you and or others around you. Yeah, dysfunction.

I plan on posting over a period of time more on growing up with adversity and overcoming the challenges. First Loves and heart breaks. Children and mistakes that we make. Forgiveness. Trust. Remarriage and more heartbreak. Opening up to the Lord. Growing old or growing up.

I am in hopes that this is a refreshing learning experience for me. Lets have fun.